I’m a terrible person, who doesn’t want to go out for their friend’s birthday. I just don’t have it in me. Everyday I learn something new and everyday I can handle it that much less. This shit has broken me. I’ve got nothing left and I just want to be myself…well, I don’t, but it’s the only thing I’ve got.
It’s all I think about. My mind is consumed by this situation and there’s nothing I can do about it. There’s no coming back from this. Things can never be the same again and right now, I just can’t take it. I get beaten down a little bit more each day and it’s getting harder to pretend that everything’s okay. So for right now, for tonight, I’m not faking it. I can’t.
I'm hungover and I don't want to do anything with myself
But I have so much laundry to do and my life is a mess, I really need to clean my bedroom. So I’m going to watch the 2 episodes of Ugly Americans that I missed while I set up my external hard drive, throw in some laundry, clean up and then reward myself by not putting on pants for the rest of the day.
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Just remembered that the Bayside show is on Wednesday
I’ve been so blahh lately that I haven’t really thought about it. That also means I still don’t have anyone to go with. It was going to be hard enough to find someone to go because no one listens to them. Then when I realized that the show was on the night before Thanksgiving, I figured it would be kind of hopeless. Everyone will most likely choose drinking over seeing a band they don’t listen to…but here’s to hoping I can convince someone to come with me.