“It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that’s dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It’s so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can’t say the things you want to.”—Henry Rollins (via tinyfactorygirl)
You can do amazing things today. Believe in that. Today, unlike yesterday is completely unique and special, but it’s up to you. Somewhere, someone believes in you, trusts that you’ll make the right decision, knows that you have the ability. Because you’re good enough, you are skinny enough, you’re not too short, your hair looks fine, and hopefully today you’ll believe me when I say you are smart enough, don’t let anyone tell you you can’t do something.
Do you know how much time I wasted believing them when they said I couldn’t do something? Too much time. So today, take hold of it, take hold of what’s yours, because you’ve earned it, you deserve it, and it’s about fucking time.
It’s never quite right, he said, the way people look, the way the music sounds, the way the words are written. It’s never quite right, he said, all the things we are taught, all the loves we chase, all the deaths we die, all the lives we live, they are never quite right, they are hardly close to right, these lives we live one after the other, piled there as history, the waste of the species, the crushing of the light and the way, it’s not quite right, it’s hardly right at all he said.
don’t I know it? I answered.
I walked away from the mirror. it was morning, it was afternoon, it was night
nothing changed it was locked in place. something flashed, something broke, something remained.
There was a hair in my Dunkin Donuts sandwich (they said tried to tell me it was melted cheese…that looked suspiciously like hair), and I thought to myself as i was dry heaving, this is the grossest thing everr!
But that’s a lie. Because the ACTUAL grossest hair/food incident happened to my friend while we were in high school, had just smoked, and went to the diner.
All I’ll say about it, is it involved buffalo chicken fingers and a whole lot of hair that did not come from anyone’s head.